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MY STORY
General Storyline Layering
Born in regional Los Angeles, California, USA, but with countless childhood travels featuring all kinds of accents and translations, plus media-village Sesame Street + Mr Roger's Neighborhood + Disney's "It's A Small World" + movies + radio + The Olympics + classrooms + babysitters + an international, worldwide church infrastructure that promoted "Spiritual Family" ideals, perspectives, and shared resources, I guess I've always felt like some kind of Old Soul Roam~Antic.
I definitely loved more playful interactive teaching styles, and "When in Roam, Do as the Roam-ins do," right? More often than not! LOL
I also exhibited some very creative and performative "gifts" early on, which still persist, often surprisingly beyond however-lengthy circumstantial challenges. Thank you Muscle Memory! My child self sensed that I desired to be some kind of "Ambassador of the Human Spirit" through all kinds of arts and/or stage sharing, even if I couldn't attend a formal high school of the arts or full college degree curriculum at a prime age (which could also avail more convenient connections and momentums).
But then, as fate would have it, various health crucibles in my late teens led me to leaving the foundational and internationally-awarded church (which fell apart a few years later anyways). It was clear to me that I needed to research as many optional paradigms as possible, "leaving no stone unturned" (almost), which also led me to holistic energy medicine modalities.
Much of my survival since is owed to practices involving chakras and meridians and holographic principles. Almost a scientific contemporary approach to several ancient shamanic and mystical dynamics. Almost.
Eventually I couldn't help but notice many archetypal social patterns repeating, regardless of age, gender, wealth, education, job context. But they only started making "enough" sense to me as I began exploring Metaphysical and Esoteric resources in my mid 20s.
Nurture AND Nature.
Now as a Multimedia Multicultural Mystic in my mid 50s (if you can sometimes tell haha), I've been in the SF Bay Area(s) for a good while, continuing to explore all kinds of communities. And maybe clearing some karma. Or receiving more Ah-MAZE-sing Grace!
Recently I've created a fun form(at) to introduce
several of my favorite "Know Thyself" resources. Deeper Dives optional! "Celebrating Your YOUnique YOU-Née-Verse-City"
In the future, I hope to complete some book(s) with audio "album(s)." And I love playing with video making or slideshow combos. I enjoy collaboration as well as indie projects. Plus I recognize that some "showmanship" is semi akin to shamanic collective catharsis medicine for the masses. Or whichever relatable target audience it can apply to.
From some esoteric insights, I could almost justify my internal compass inclinations (and personal integrity) by pointing out that:
1) My main numerology path ultimately makes me a PIONEER / SCOUT / INNOVATOR
(amongst several other ancestral Trailblazers)
*also I'm a 4th generation Asian American Korean/Chinese firstborn of six, who has been to Hawaii a bunch but never to Asia, with bicoastal and Hawaii mixed-race, mixed social-class, USA relatives.
*I'm also the mom of a now adult Anglo-Asian daughter who towers over me with stunning red hair and honey hazel eyes.
*We're Both survivors of DV and other prejudicial bullies etc.
2) My Overall Karmic Path: The Way of TRANSCENDENCE
3) My two main Birth Cards of Destiny ♥️♣️♦️♠️
The WRITER (Three of Clubs)
The ARTIST (Three of Spades)
🧩And on it goes, Strengths AND Weaknesses et al.
I love experiencing more healing and integration for both others and myself. Any progress is appreciated. This is what drives me. (For those already in the know, Yes I am a late Virgo analytical serving-healer Sun Sign, but with a Stellium in artsy pleasure-preferring Libra)
WAHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! 🕊️
Educational Background & Context
photo -- Ambassador Auditorium
(my childhood church headquarters)
TRAVELS:
USA states (15+ before age 22), 24, 48
Hawaiian Islands: Oahu, Maui, Kauai, The Big Island
(ages 5, 6 [1st grade], 16ish, 19ish, 53)
Britain & NW Europe (ages 4, 16, 17, 20, 28)
Mexico/Central America
(ages 12ish Mexico City, 20ish Acapulco, cruise 22ish,
56 Puerto Aventuras / Tulum / via Cancun)
Canada (canoe border ages 14, 15) (Toronto age 24)
Egypt via Istanbul (ages 53, 54)
CAMPSITES:
"Lost Wilds" Eastbay to Arcata 2025
Northern CA Dance Camp 2024
West Coast camping Tour 1991
S.E.P. Big Sandy (Texas) 1987
Winter Camp in Austria/Germany 1986
E.F. Tour & S.E.P. Scotland (Loch Lomond) 1986
S.E.P. Orr (Minnesota) 1985
Camp Wasewagan (Washington State) 1984
Camp River Glen (San Bernardino County) 80's
CampFire & Girl Scout camps (California) 80's
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FORMAL SECULAR EDUCATION:
(beginning with most recent)
CERTIFICATE PROGRAMS
(as recalled or via email records)
2025 DSA Debra Silverman Astrology Courses 1-2
Money Magnet Accelerator 2025
New Divine Feminine Leaders Mastery Activation 2023
CA Real Estate License 2022
Healed Heart Hypnosis 2021
Golden Gate Feng Shui School 2018-2019
Soul Source Business 2017
Bankwork$ JVS 2015
Sound, Voice, Music Healing CIIS 2010-2011
Holographic Repatterning 1998
Artists Way Workshop 1997
Landmark Education 1992-1994
ACADEMIA / INSTITUTIONAL
California Institute of Integral Studies SF 2010-2011
College of Alameda 2006 (Financial Literacy)
San Bernardino Valley College 2000 (PreSchool Arts)
Art Center of Design, CalArts, CalState Northridge, UCLA, LACC 1990s (Department Day visits)
Pasadena City College 1990-2003 intermittently
(Arts, Music, Dance, Welding, Theater, Stage Crew Tech, Humanities, Health, Telecommunications (TV/Radio production), Observatory, Vocational, Campus Clubs, Counselings)
Glendale Community College 1991 (Dance and Choreography)
Ambassador College 1987-1990 Pasadena, CA Campus
(A.A. degree Liberal Arts & Theology)
OTHER SCHOOL TOURS/VISITS:
Globe Sound Healing Institute (Sausalito)
Grove School of Music
LAMA Los Angeles Music Academy
(music school in LA)
Occidental College, UC Irvine, USC, CalTech, Art Center of Design, Cal State Long Beach, Cal State L.A., FIDM, Santa Monica Community College,
To be Continued...
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WORK-RELATED FIELDS:
Performance/Entertainment/Presenter
Film Extra Work, Character Model, Hair Model
Transportation Network Driver
Art School classroom modeling
Print/Copy and Design Shops
Data Entry + Word Processing
Floral & Gift Delivery
Museums & Children's Museum
Gymnastics assistant teacher + Birthday parties
Childcare and Carpooling and Nanny
Education and Library Storyteller
Big Sisterhood and Motherhood
Synchronizing lyrics to notes for Karaoke Company
Pool Table Hostess (upscale bar)
Embroidery Company (graphing data points)
General Business Office, (including City Hall Pasadena)
Receptionist/Secretary (Fitness Center, Yoga)
Sales (Stationary, Clothing, Holiday, Office Supplies, Kids Educational Toys)
Restaurant/Deli/Banquet
Live-In elder/disabled care
House/Pet sitting
Landscaping and Mirror Pool maintenance
Custodial (college work exchange)
Assistant cheerleading instructor & choreographer
VOLUNTEER EXPERIENCES:
OACC Oakland Asian Cultural Center
Videos, editing and Photos
Website creation
Alameda Art & Wine Festival
Rakkasah Bellydance Festival
Artists Embassy International
Home of Truth Alameda
Alameda Multicultural Center
Frank Bette Center of the Arts 4th of July parade
Chalk-It-Up Festival Pasadena
Homeless Shelter kitchen
Card Art college program
Song/Dance groups
Piano for brunches and weddings
Seminar Office prep support
Seminar small group lead
To be continued...
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SPORTS:
Swimming, Diving, Lifeguard requirements, Scuba basics, Bicycle, Soccer, Softball, Flag Football, Basketball (and variations), Freeze Tag, Foursquare, Volleyball, Tetherball, Raquetball, Tennis, PingPong, INTROS to Horseback Riding, Roller Skating, Ice Skating, Snow Skiing, Water Skiing, Jetskiing, Windsurfing, Parasailing, Canoeing, Sailing, Golf, Riflery, Archery, Fencing, RockClimbing, Moped, Pilot, Skydiving, Hot Air Ballooning, Hang Gliding
DANCE Forms: Hula, Ballet, Jazz, Tap, Character, Gymnastics, Martial Arts, Aerobics, Ballroom, Clogging, Highland, Cheerleading, Jazzercise, Yoga, TaiChi, Zumba, Bellydance, Flamenco, 5 Rhythms, Ecstatic Open Floor, Aerial intro
Accessories: Hooping, Poi, Anklet spinner, JumpRope, Flags, Percussion (cymbals, drum, gourd, sticks, snapping/clapping/stomping, shakers, tambourine), Ribbons, Scarves/Veils, Fans, Umbrellas, Cane/Staff...
To be continued...
(CANNOT do LOL: Double Dutch, Bungee Jumping,
Skateboard, Water Ski, Surf, Bicycle with no hands, Motorycle...)
EXTRACURRICULAR:
Yamaha, Piano, CampFire Girls, Girl Scouts, Boys & Girls Clubs, Church Youth groups, Choir, Sewing, Embroidery, Knitting, Macrame, LatchHook Rugs, Crafts...
BOARDGAMES and Contained KINETIC Challenges:
Checkers, Chess, Backgammon, Clue, Cardgames, Connect Four, Chinese Checkers, Dominoes, Operator, Sound/light memory, Crossword Puzzles, 1000 piece puzzles, 3D puzzles, Toobers-and-Zots, Etch-a-Sketch, PickUp Sticks, Building Blocks, Spirograph, Furniture Forts, Sandboxes...
AMUSEMENT PARKS:
Disneyland, Disneyworld & Epcot Center, Knott's Berry Farm, Universal Studios, Seaworld, Aquariums (Monterey Bay + SF), Fairyland, Light Festivals, IMAGINARIUM, Great America, Six Flags (Valencia + Vallejo), Hurricane Harbor, Underground Caves...
Bladium Sports Complex, Trampoline Parks, iFLY (indoor skydiving)
VENDOR Conventions/Festivals, MUSEUMS
Local Civic Recreational Parks
(Malls/Maps/Floorplans)
ADDITIONAL CONTEXT (SPIRITUAL / METAPHYSICAL VANTAGE POINTS
With My Daughter
Kids are Magic!
Mine towers over me now. Millenium Bebe.
Yes she's a natural red head. Honey Hazel eyes.
Like Poetic Justice after being subjected to some childhood church racist rules, even though I had several older mixed relatives and had also witnessed so many mixed-race countries in my youth.
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🤍 Some metaphysicians had told me via pendulum that my life partner would be a redhead. How do we define life partner? Or what kind? And for how long?
🤍 Born in The Jewel city in Jewel-Eye (July) to a dad whose initials were J.E.W. (funny because I often thought I would marry a Jew who loves learning -- then I noticed that several other relatives married that way), and I have the physics spiritual book "Jewel in the Lotus"
🤍 My 1st real Tarot reading EVER was so accurate about the circumstances of my pregnancy term, including + concluding with a healthy baby!
(I wish I could find another psychic as gifted as that jewish woman LOL)
🤍 Lots of synchronicities with the Lady of Guadalupe and with Roses surrounding this child. God/Goddess knows we need the Divine Compassion to survive the heavier hardships. (Plus a little Calvin & Hobbes cartooning)
🤍 Somehow I got full custody. And the psycho drug-cycle dad lost his visitation rights. The dangers/damages are real as well as surreal. But thankfully, so are the miracles.
Even as other challenges continue.
Onward & Forward!
~🤍~
Day of IMAGINATION
The synopsis really captures and connects
various puzzle pieces so well.
All in a greeting card size.
So Refreshing!
Thank You
Taia Stewart
~🤍~
The Cards I've Been Dealt
Hmmmmmmm
I can't argue with these 😉
At Long Last!!!
Something understands me
🎉🫶🏻🧭🕊️
I love composing...
With concepts, visuals, sounds, movement!
And sometimes words too! Haha
~🤍~
Learning My Lessons
-- Cosmic Curriculum --
(overall Lesson Plan)
My "Cusp Week" Personology
on this particular
Karmic Destiny Path 🌐
How my journey has been evolving!
~🤍~
Peculiar PIONEERING I -- Sevenish Year Cycle CHAPTERS
7ish-year cycle CHAPTERS
(Highlighting various Social Classes)
{Relating to Chakra Themes as well}
BASIC OUTLINE
Chapter One
(ages 0-7) World Traveler/Citizen "class"
- based out of Los Angeles county -
Chapter Two
(ages 7-14) Upper & Upper Middle "class"
Chapter Three
(ages 14-21) Middle & Lower Middle "class"
Chapter Four
(ages 21-28) Student & Working "class"
Chapter Five
(ages 28-35) Grassroots/Gypsy/Ghetto and Peripatetic/Peasant/Poverty "class"
Chapter Six
(ages 35-42) The CREATIVE "class"
- San Francisco Bay Area -
Chapter Seven
(ages 42-49) The IDEAS/Originators "class"
Chapter Eight
(ages 49-current) Seems like Healing
~ (Re)Balancing and Coming Full Circle ~
Perhaps moving towards
a "class" of my own?
~🤍~
Added Descripctions for --Peculiar PIONEERING 1
Chapter One
(ages 0-7) World Traveler/Citizen "class"
- based out of Los Angeles county -
International, National, Regional, State, City, Residential, Congregational, Conventions, Classrooms, Babysitters, Hotels/Motels, etc.
Cars, Planes, Trains, Busses, Ships...
Chapter Two
(ages 7-14) Upper & Upper Middle "class"
Private Prep School and Privileged Extracurricular Trainings
[Academia, Arts, Athleticism]
Chapter Three
(ages 14-21) Middle & Lower Middle "class"
24/7 immersion in worldwide church cult/ure alternatives
[Service, Socializing, Sports groups]
Schooling (high school and first college) + Sabbaths + Speech clubs + Choir/Song/Dance recitals + Seasonal Varsity + Summer camps + other travel opportunities
Chapter Four
(ages 21-28) Student & Working "class"
Explore "EVERYTHING" outside the childhood church
[Schools, Seminars, Subcultures]
Dayjobs, Dating, Drama "Therapy,"
Rooms for Rent, Housemate Arrangements,
College Campuses, Counselors, Open Mics,
Comparative Religious/Spiritual Centers,
Holistic havens, Metaphysical Sanctuaries,
Cemetery Art & Landscaping
Chapter Five
(ages 28-35) Grassroots/Gypsy/Ghetto and Peripatetic/Peasant/Poverty "class"
Getting "Grounded" with Mother Earth
Then with Motherhood
Strolling and Strollering along the Ley Lines and feeling the expanded energy fields!
Learning Inter-dependence within the thin membrane of varying Societal "Landscapes" -
(Socialscapes)
And much City-hopping, eventually down to a virtual survival Science.
Falling through legal "cracks" to ultimately find a more Nature-based Faith
(with energy medicine modalities)
Chapter Six
(ages 35-42) The CREATIVE "class"
- San Francisco Bay Area -
Witnessing the business of ART
via Schools, High Schools and Colleges, University Departments, Animation Studios, Fashion classrooms, Warehouse Collectives, Museums, Community Centers, Retirement communities, Libraries, Guild, Festivals...
print/copy shops
[primarily as a classroom model]
Getting paid to learn the Bay Area too!
Chapter Seven
(ages 42-49) The IDEAS/Originators "class"
Passing Conversations or Volunteer Staffing
with all kinds of Entrepreneurs, Visionaries, Originators, Start Ups, Innovators.
Occasionally sharing some original Ideas of my own in performance/shows/gigs.
Chapter Eight
(ages 49-current) Seems like Healing
~ (Re)Balancing and Coming Full Circle ~
Integrating more long-held Desires,
before I get too old or too "busy" LOL
Perhaps moving towards
a "class" of my own?
~🤍~
Peculiar PIONEERING II -- Legal/Spiritual NAME Changes
5 NAME Changes
switching up
My Worldviews
"When TRUTH is STRANGER than FICTION"
This may be somewhat controversial
(And do I really need that kind of attention?)
but it may also be helpful to some...
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PATTERNS & SYMBOLS of
Western >>> Eastern versions
Secular >>> Spiritual
Masculine >>> Feminine
Dominances >>> Balancing
Southern-Central-Northern
External-Internal
Above-Below
Centering
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~ Southern California ~
generally more about alpha males
with supportive females
Birthname by father >>>
1st Spiritual Name by course instructors
LISA MARIE >>> LHOTUS REAH
Channeled: Western Secular Religious approaches >>> Eastern Spiritual Mystical experiences
Locales: City of Trees & ROSES
(with annual Rose Parade Fest) >>>
Silverlake City adjacent to annual LOTUS Festival
(Symbols of Spiritual Growth blossoming)
~ Central/Northern California ~
generally more about alpha females
with supportive males
Divorce Name I chose from an online list (incredible insights and timing) >>>
Spiritual Name I chose from an alternative online list (with major synchronicities + serendipities related to my birth constellations)
A Name that my mother had secretly wanted for a child >>> A Name that I thought was NOT Goddessy LOL though I always loved the story of Esther and those exquisite cultural elements.
ISABELL TRESA >>> ISHTAR-LHOTUS REIAH
Channeled: Western Secular Dogmatic Commercial approaches to the ARTS >>> Eastern Spiritual Mystical Organic Healing applications for the ARTS
Furthermore... The seven gates of Ishtar's archetypal initiatory journey may relate to the seven main chakras, which are represented by lotuses. It made sense for me to combine the two names to make it more personalized.
~ Far Northern California
& Traveling Abroad Again ~
generally more about males and females
co-creating in more equitable communities
(still have a ways to go)
*Lemurian/Hawaiian Name revealed
through intuition + many synchronicities + angel numbers + incredible timing AGAIN.
Catalysted but Rearranged from another list.
While preparing to go to the Big Island for my first time, 30 years since any Hawaiian visits, and solo but with a "Priestess Pilgrimage" spiritual gathering highlighting intentional soul-familiar ceremonies.
<<< LEYLANI KYLEIAA >>>
Especially meaningful and fun since
Lei = blossom/flower/garland
(but spelled like ley lines)
Lani = heavenly/royal
essentially means the same thing as
"Ishtar Lotus"
Channeling more New Age / Ancient Future
Aquarian Era and Mystical Communities
Activating and Advancing
Including Permaculture Farms
+ Animal Wisdoms + Waterworld Cultures!
More bridging, More Nature, More Love!
~🤍~
Phonetic (FUNetic) Physiology
HEAVEN = HAVEN
or EVEN Balanced Flow
of a Clear(ed) Conscience
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PURGATORY = PURGE-A-STORY
limbic limbo anticipation process realms
Needing to Name our Rumple-Stilt-Skins
(Depressed usually need DEEP REST)
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Hell & Damnation = HELD back Truths
and DAMmed up Emotions
(Burning Up sensation/messenger of Guilt)
or Dis-Ease symptoms
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HOLY SPIRIT = Spirit of Wholeness
INTIMACY = Into Me See
INTEGRITY = Inte/gra/te
"Channeled" "Downloaded"
(or noticed early 2000s)
~🤍~
Acknowledging Ancestors
Grandma Mary (CA Artist)
Graduated at age 70
M.A. degree in Fine Arts
CalState L.A.
"Woman In Bloom"
I joke that
"Art was her Religion"
in contrast to
my other grandmother whose
"Religion was her Art"
To be Continued...
Grandpa David (CA Architect)
Ever heard of Japanese Village Plaza,
Little Tokyo in Downtown Los Angeles?
Early Korean/Hawaiian/CA architect
Best known for revitalizing a slum area into a thriving commerce and cultural destination.
Also known for his use of the Blue Tile roofing.
Extensive archives of his father's revolutionary and political provisionary work and human rights independence efforts
with USC, etc.
To be Continued...
GREAT Grandpa Reverend Soon (Freedom Fighter Visionary)
Korean Independence Movement
Provisionary Government in Shanghai
Missionary Village in Hawaii
Traveling Minister
Ten kids and wife Maria
To be Continued...
Grandma Evelyn (Maryland)
Community Loyalist and Religious Fanatic
Devout Preachy passions
"Religion as an Art form"
Born in Pennsylvania
Apparently she also drew, painted,
loved Jazz music
though I never got to personally witness
those facets about her
Grandpa Pon Tom (Maryland)
WWII Bronze Star & Purple Heart
Laundry Chain and Restaurant owner
Peaceful mellow personality
Bowling Champ (after retiring)
Eclectic Relatives
DESCENDED from or MARRIED into:
Korean
Chinese
Hawaiian
Japanese
Philippino
Anglo-Asian
Jewish
Czechoslovakian
European mix
Scots/English/Irish/Celts
Near-Middle Eastern
Family of Origin
DAD
Hawaiian born, grew up in Los Angeles
(West Coast) Korean Firstborn of 2,
USC, MIT, Business workaholic,
though he used to play guitar
and sing ballads or Spanish songs
MOM
Maryland born and raised (East Coast)
Chinese Firstborn of 4,
Quintessential Secretary,
Household management, kid taxi,
decent cook, and health food stores
ME (sister 1)
California born (First/Oldest of 6)
3rd/4th generation Asian American.
Artsy spiritual Seeker/Traveler, naturalist, social studies, philosophical, Humanities.
Love some glam too, but The Great Outdoors more more more!!!
Sister 2
The Tourist, The Yuppie,
The Popularity Contest PR politician,
Alpha go-getter, Sporty Corporate,
and now a top commercial Real Estate broker
(Sibling 3)
The Unknown, anticipated,
miscarried 3rd Trimester
Ten years my younger
Sister 3
Eleven years younger,
curious, group adventurer,
pragmatic seeker evolving
(Siblings 5 + 6)
Brothers TWINS
Fifteen years younger,
roly-poly Ninja Turtle spirits,
basketball fanatics,
creative concept builders,
now great husbands/dads
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Sometimes people cannot believe
that we are all part of the same family.
But it's also part of what has
eventually persuaded me of
Astrology + Numerology.
So Grateful!
Fave Role Models & Extended Communities
Remembering...
"Auntie" MASA
Early childcare babysitter
Secret ex World Billiards Champion
MASAKO before Church Life in America
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ELLY VAN DIIJK
(Dance Teacher & Minister of Culture)
originally from HOLLAND, The Netherlands
MONA MANOS
(Gymnastics Teacher -- Victory Park)
always such a graceful, fun, funny mystery
YOLETTE MERRITT
(United Nations)
(African American New Yorker with British/French/World Flair)
Cosmopolitan yet Down to Earth Relatable
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CINDY ASPENNS
(group childcare extraordinaire and
pro-active CampFire Girls leader)
Mrs GRIDLEY
(Girls Club leader with brilliant British accent
and the kindest, hilarious yet sensible, constructive, contagious optimism)
Mrs TUCKER
(modest and encouraging
piano teacher
while running a dynamic household)
Mrs GRABBE
(Quietly, comfortably
taught me how to Sew
and use patterns --
while babysitting)
Mrs DAVIES
(another childcare provider
taught me more about
embroidery and knitting)
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"Uncle" CHARLES DAVIS
A kind, peaceful, respectful, gentle, unhurried, observant, considerate, sensible, practical,
mellow adult male who made us feel safe and intrinsically valuable + full of good potential + connecting to Nature neighborhood walks
(while he and his wife babysat us with their
two rambunctious / rowdy / hyper sons)
Virtual Village Male Heroes
(respecting emotions internal+external)
Mr. Rogers Neighborhood
Sesame Street
music by Barry Manilow, BREAD,
Air Supply (etc)
The Professor on Gilligan's Island
Bill Nye The Science Guy
Brother on Escape to Witch Mountain
Sean Cassidy, Chad Lowe
Matthew Labyorteaux in
"Little House on the Prairie" and "Whiz Kids"
"Doc" on Back to the Future
Mr Miyagi of "Karate Kid"
Shaolin Monk on 70s "Kung Fu"
Inspector Gadget
Quantum Leap TV show
To be Continued...
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BAY AREA NorCAL
MARY RUDGE
Poet Laureate and inclusive Grandmotherly spirit
KUMU LANI CID-IULIO
Hula Dance Instructor & Community Visionary
Historian and Cultural Pillar